Love is Stupid

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Confrontation

Confrontation is very difficult at times. I honestly find it super intimidating. You have to practice what you are going to say, how you are going to say it, and how you are going to approach the situation. But, once it is over, it’s such an amazing and relieving feeling. If you have any issues with someone, talk to them about it! It’s all going to be okay, just get it over with! I promise it’s not as bad as you think it’s going to be. It’s something I need to work on, but it will all work out!

Exclusion

We’ve all been there. Feeling excluded, left out, left behind. I’ve been there a lot. I’m feeling it right now so I think I’m just going to vent it out. It’s hard. When you have a group of friends, you kind of just want to be there all of the time, you want to be a part of everything… but you can’t always be part of everything. That’s the thing, sometimes you just have to accept that people are going to leave you out of things, and sometimes you are going to be the one who excludes people. But please don’t fret, if you are having one of those times where you feel left out or left behind, accept that you are by yourself. It’s okay to be alone! Cuddle up with your favorite blanket, drink your favorite tea, and watch Netflix or read a book or do whatever you want to do! Like I’ve stated in other posts, it’s OKAY to be alone. Enjoy that time, because down the road you are going to have a lot less alone time. So sit there, enjoy doing whatever you want, and be happy! You aren’t going to be a part of everything all of the time, but that’s okay, you need you time. 🙂

Identifying Your Photographic Inspiration and Style

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Today’s technology makes the creation of a photograph a trivial thing. With the rapid improvement of cameras within mobile devices in the last decade, we are rarely without the ability to take photographs of the minutiae of our daily lives. We can share images with others with the tap of a button, and the feedback in the form of likes and comments is addictive. With the trivialization of photography in an age of selfies, latte art, sunsets, and vintage color filters (all of which I love, if I’m being honest), some of the heart and art of the craft seems to be getting lost. As a photographer, do you take the time to identify and understand what really excites you when you find it in front of your lens? If not, do you wish to start?

“You can’t use up creativity. The more you use, the more you have.” —…

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Social Media and the Insecurity

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So, I’m not sure about you guys but I use different social media sites for different things. Facebook for posting photos and keeping up with what old friends and family members are doing. Twitter, for the humor and thoughts. Pinterest, for ideas. And instagram, for art and photography. Oh and snapchat for seeing what all of my friends are up to! Usually, I don’t feel insecure when using social media. Yes, I compare the amount of likes to others. And yes, I try and make my pictures as cool as possible. But usually, I just don’t really care that much. What I post online I’m proud of, I don’t post anything that I’m embarrassed by. But lately, I’ve been comparing my profiles to everybody else. I have been looking at my amount of followers and likes, and wishing that I had more. It’s so silly. We should feel free to express ourselves in any way, and to not feel self conscious about it. But, social media can somehow make us feel not cool enough. You wouldn’t think that something so silly could make you feel so small! We have to just post things that make us happy, and to not second guess what we do. The amount of likes and followers do not match our worth! We just have to do our own thing, and express ourselves! Social media is awesome because you can post artistic things, and interesting thoughts (like this blog for example). It saves paper, and it won’t disappear. I love instagram, because I loveee photography and editing photos. It’s such an awesome app, and I shouldn’t compare my profile to others! Anyways, I just felt like venting to you all.

Fear

Fear is such a well… scary feeling. Last night, for the first time in a long time, I felt that feeling of fear for the first time in a while. And what’s worse, I felt it when I was completely alone. It’s a long story, but it was scary. I usually am a pretty independent person. I often don’t really feel like I need a boyfriend to comfort me or make me happy. When I cry, I want to be alone or just call my mom. But last night, I was alone and scared, and all I wanted was someone. And that someone that I wanted, was a cuddle buddy. Somebody who can tell me that everything is going to be okay. But I was all alone, and it was the first time I truly did not want to be. I just feel like I keep waiting, and everyone I meet who I think would be a really good match for me are already taken. I just feel frustrated. Being alone can be so… lonely. There are many different types of lonely, sometimes it’s good and sometimes it’s bad. There’s the type of okay lonely.. that version where you want to be alone, you don’t want to talk to anybody. That lonely is my favorite, I’m really a fan of that lonely. But then there’s that bad lonely where you feel helpless. You can be around a lot of people, and still feel so alone. How weird is that? You sit there amongst so many people, but you feel like nobody can relate to you. I feel that way right now. There’s things you can do about that loneliness, but sometimes you just don’t want to.
I just felt like venting. I hope there are people out there that can relate to me. But just know you are not alone, we have all been there before.
None of us are truly alone, so read this knowing that I’m here for you guys, even when we don’t even know each other.
“Language… has created the word ‘loneliness’ to express the pain of being alone. And it has created the word ‘solitude’ to express the glory of being alone.” – Paul Tillich

Anxious yet again

Last night was rough. After a day of resting but also feeling pretty weak and crappy, the topic of figuring out where we are going to live in a MONTH crossed my mind. I of course  looked to my parents for help and advice, and of course got no help whatsoever and found that they just made the situation much worse. So I had a slight panic attack, and handled the situation in a way that I’m not supposed to: by freakin the freak out. I panicked… I panicked because I truly have no clue where I am going to live this summer. I also don’t know if I’m just living with my roommate as planned, or if we are going to live with more people. I want to live in the moment and not stress, I want to live life freely and just go with whatever happens. But being dependent financially on my dad is making that really difficult. I know that I’m so lucky to have someone who has been so supportive financially, and who had given me the life I live. But I now feel in debted to him somehow. It’s frustrating. He has control and I’d like 100% control of my life. If anybody who’s in this weird in between part of their life, please help me out. Maybe we can relate together and understand eachother’s confusion and difficulty. Being a young adult is fun but so confusing.